22 november 2009

at last...
haritu aku sampai jgk sp...
stlh sekian lame x gi...
tp x sempat g stabak...
tp sempat jumpe sume batch mate aku...
mish2 them much...
bak kate la kan...
topeng ensem...
lec x de yg knal pun...
just 3 org je...
aku jumpe lps aku bukak topeng time dinner hbs...
now da start sem...
result bole la...
x de la fail...
tp agame dapat C...
huhuhu...
hope dapat jumpe the boys n gurls kat dinner tu lagi...
everyone...
thanx 4 the memories...
thanx 4 everything...
thanx 4 making me...
a better person...

db:22 11 2009

18th September 2009

havnt been writing for quite a long time...
here i just wanna say a few things...
i'm quite happy now...
but still not as happy as before...
i've new friends now...
but still arnt comparable to the ones before...
yes i love them...
yes i miss them...
i just dont have the heart...
i just dont have the strenght to tell them...
of how i miss them n miss them so...
to the nz clan...
i'm sorry if it seems like i ddnt read ur blogs...
it's just that i dn't know what to comment...
i'm jelous that i cant b with u guys...
i cry when i think of u guys...
i had sleepless nights...
just thinking of u guys...

Long story to tell,short of ideas???

gonna make this as simple as i can...
much had happened since my last post...

1. got a new phone
2. went shopping
3. kene blind date(sham punye keje...nasib baik gurl tu nice n sweet n the list goes on)
4. g pc fair
5. jumpe asai(ex schoolmate)
   
6. jumpe echa(member 4 tahun x jumpe)
7. mid sex exam(siyes teruk)
8. worst of all...i lost zahi...al-fatihah
9. bukak puase ngan sham
10. da x ingat da

huhuhhu
sowi post ni bosan
c ya later

When the day starts raining...

When the day starts raining...
Everything turns gloomy...
No more sunshine...
No more smiles...

When the day starts raining...
Everything turns cold...
No more heat...
No more warmth...

It sucks when the day starts raining...
Even worst when it rains...
When I'm sad...
And it always rain when I'm sad...

PPl always say...
Life will never be as planned...
Cuz that's life...
Like a box of chocolate...

As the day passed...
I keep on wondering...
Why is life like this...
Why can't i be like everyone else...

I admit that it's fun to b alone...
But that is if u r really alone...
Nobody up front and nobody breathing at ur back...
Nobody on ur right and nobody on ur left...

Being alone helps me think...
Bout the beauty of this world...
Bout the value of friends...
Bout the reason I'm living...

But when there's somebody near me...
Being alone can kill...
That's when the emptiness in life creeps in...
That's when u starts dying slowly...

Like i always say....
Why live when u don't even have a life...
It doesn't make any sense right...
Living without a life...

As i walked A'a home from extreme park...
We talked bout our background...
Her past-life and mine...
Then it struck me...

Dejavu...
Another scary piece of my life...
Always dream of something...
That eventually came true...

I hope i'll dream i'll b damn rich...
Then when it come true...
I could b what i wanna b...
Playboy...
Drunkard...
Stupid...

Wasting my pathetic life...
Doing what i want...
Buying friends with money...
I don't care bout the promises i've made...
I don't care bout the promises i'll break...
I will not care bout the ones near me nor myself...

FUCK LIFE!!!

Tlg la bg tajuk...

O cruel life,
Show thee mercy on me,
I'm just living a life,
A life devoted to she.

O hollow love,
Show thee sweetness to me,
I'm just looking for love,
A love meaningful to me.

O broken heart,
Mend yourself for me,
I'm just filling a heart,
A heart of an angel to me.....

A Day of Weird Classes,Weird Accidents,Wall Climbing and Burger King

Today starts of with waking up at 7,
Going to MSU at 7.40,
Went to class at 8,
finished class at 9,
Walking to an unknown class at 9.30 only to know that me n my friends r lost,
Met the KJ,
Stop 4 a chat with my friends,
Sleep,
Bath,
Wall climbing,
n now i'm at burger king.

sorry
i'm just fucking bored right now

so ends my life in IPSAH

Diatas pengaruh daripada org2 yg berpengaruh,saye telah tepengaruh utk mengubah post ini.sedikit perubahan dilakukan tetapi msg tetap same.

kepada semua
mintak maaf n halal mkn minum aku
it's been a pleasure being with u guys

PESANAN TERAKHIR...

1. azu...sihat2kanlah diri anda.jgn sampai time ko khwn nnt aku muat pakai seluar ko
2. syamel ngan azu...jgn gado2 lagi
3. ammar n noreen...refer atas
4. zati...mkn bnyk2.balancekan that thing.
5. wan...aku mai ipoh aku roger hang
6. tajul...utang hang nnt aku bank in
7. wawan n elin...moge berbahagia
8. bob...tq sbb bnyk support aku
9. mes...rindu nak gode ko
10. mufid...jubah ko nnt aku pulang
11. tina...jage diri baik2
12. aisyah...thanx utk ape yg ko msg tu
13. farah...gonna mish u bebeh
14. wani...jgn sng terkejut
15. kepade semua yg x di mention...sowi.x sanggup nak tulis lagi.starting to cry now.luv u all

Abdul Hakeem Bin Abdul Rahim-IPSAH-16.7.07-9.6.09-R.I.P

back on the stage!!!

nothing much

just that i went on stage again after a few months

almost a year actually...

how i miss the old days...

3000 audience

the best eva

this time there's only bout 350

but that's ok

i dance for fun

though it's already a few weeks past

just wanna put in a pic...

wuteva ppl say...

"oit,bape hinggit ko bli menatang nih?" "ko rase membazir ke bli bende nih?"

ppl always ask n say,

this n that,

bout my love for them,

if u love sumthin,u don't mind spending for them.

i've this love for things,

things that are beautiful,

things that clicks,

things that bring light to my life.

ppl might say that i love 3 different type of things,

but actually,

it's all in one.

meet my beauties,my lovers n my girls.

well,

not all of them actually,

i've 3 from all of those.

my zippo story start when i was 12,

i kept my money and bought one,

it cost me around 80,

then it came to a pause,

until i entered IPSAH.

i've bought 9 so far,

lost 4,

gave 1,

n,

kept 4 of them.

i'll try my best to find them,

hunt,

n,

own them.

i hope that this dream of mine to have a 100 zippos will come true in 15 years time,

wish me all the luck.

to all esp: mr ipsahero n miss ijat

thanx cuz bnyk bagi sokongan, galakan, dan yg sewaktu dengannye

post sblm ini telah mencatat rekod baru dalam bilangan comment

harap2nye saye akan dapat berubah

kpd mr ipsahero

sowi cuz x dapat g majlis akad nikah abg ko

mmg nak pegi

tp...

aku pk2 aku nak buat sumthing utk diri aku plak

skali ni je

rilek2

ko punye majlis nikah nnt aku datang

ko x jemput pon aku datang

pastu aku hempok pale ko sbb x jemput aku

kpd miss ijat

slamat tue

welkem tu da club
jadilah mcm aku

berubah

perubahan satu benda yg baik

kalau ko berubah jadi baik la

nak lyn caprice jap

out

sekian lama.....

setelah sekian lama aku menyepi
kini hadir menampil diri

bnyk terjadi tergamam hati

senyum penawar,luka di hati

setelah sekian lama...

aku menyepi diri,

aku menzalimi diri,

aku menghina diri,

setelah sekian lama...

aku hidup bergelumang dosa,

setiap hari menambah seksa,

aku dan kamoo sungguh berbeza,

setelah sekian lama...

post kali ini merupakan refleksi hidup selama 20 tahun 3 bulan 23 hari aku idop kat dunia ni

terutama kehidupan di maktab

dan akhir2 ini

"what made u change??"

tanye salah seorang kawan baik aku

aku terdiam,tergamam,bisu seribu bahasa

sebelum ini aku baek la jgk

x cari pasal ngan lecturer

tp sem ni sume berubah

like hell if u ask me

it's like i'm not me

tp...

selepas aku hantar esaiment yg 2 kali kene redo

aku sedar

ade sumthn yg berubah

sbb aku actually cakap

"mdm,sorry" kat mdm bb

yg buat aku pelik ialah

aku rase hepi lepas cakap tu

maybe at last....

aku yg dulu da kembali

dan dia gembira kerana aku berlembut hati

aku harap semua ini akan kekal begini

lagi satu pasal menari

akhirnye aku dapat masuk first team

setelah sekian lame menanti

banyak yg terjadi

aku berdiam diri

biar bakat terserlah sendiri

nnt mak aku nak datang

kul 3 ptg nnt sampai la kot

die gaduh lagi ngan bapak aku

dem...

bohsan aku...

tensen2

harap2 aku leh wat die hepi

meh jumpe die ramai2

die stay sampai ahad

mane tau dapat mkn free

hahahahaha

to be late,or not to be?

ramai bertanye

"hakeem,ko da buat literature ke blom?"

"blom."

jawabku mudah

ramai berkate

"baik ko buat cepat...susah tau..."

"ok."sepatah ku berkata

bile ku terfikir kisah2 silam

lambat hantar esaimen

semua dihantar lewat

patutkah aku hantar on time 4 litereture?

patutkah aku membuat lecturer lain merasekan bahawe aku x ske subject diorang?

patutkah?

tanya ku sendiri

ku berfikir

berfikir

fikir lagi

dan rase2nye aku akan hantar lewat

kpd rakan2

doakan la aku hantar on time

adios

flasHbaCK

sowi weh
lame x tulis
x sengaje termalas plak
hmmm
selepas merentas desa
bnyk perkara terjadi
post kali ini
akanku ketengahkan perkara2 berikot
uhuk2...

1.lambat hantar esaimen
2.kn marah ngan miss sim
3.kn halau dari klas bb
4.gembira di starbuks
5.sedih dgn ape yg terjadi

5 bende besa
cukup la 5
hmmm
sekarang mase refleksi
alah....
mcm buat refleksi aktiviti tu la

1.mcm biase je.aku mmg kuang ajo.x pnah hantar esaimen on time.harep2 dapat berubah<<
2.terase beb.lagi2 ble die cakap i'll call ur parents.pucat time tu x terkate.jgn kate toreh,blender muke aku pon jumpe2 darah.
3.ni mmg fuck.aku jgk yg kene.pehh.bkn aku x bace.x bawak je pon.last2 lepak bilik hisap rokok.rilek suda.
4.hehehehehe.nampak 'dia' x pakai uniform keje.pakai top n half.half jename nike warne putih.top x ingat jename.tp warne itam.sempat gurau ngan die.thanx to naz kat starbucks
5.huuhhh....ni sedih gle...ape yg terjadi buat aku risau.kawan gado sama kawan.kawan gado sama bukan kawan.aku harap bnde ni selesai cepat.sbb...aku sedih ble kawan2 aku sedih n aku hepi ble kawan2 aku hepi.

p/s:rindu kedamaian,rindu hang out,nak sngt jumpe semua

MeREntas dESa

hari ini hari merentas desa
pagi2 aku g 7e
bli plastik n pin
tp pin x de
so aku bli la double sided tape
then aku bli sebotol kampai
minum sambil isap rokok
mmg layan
balik2 havoc pasal number
pastu lari
lari punye lari punye lari
kuar balik kampai aku
peh...
panas je
da la rm2.50
pastu aku lari lagi
lari punye lari punye lari
dapat no 20
ok la tu beb
smoker yg x g eksesais ptg2
tp...
dalam ke"star"an aku tu
tbe2 cramp plak
peh
malu
sakit gle
nasib bak x nangis
hhuhhuu
pape pon aku dapat no 20
muahahahaha

26 february 2009...

hari ini hari khamis,

hari last minggu ini,

hari last hantar assignment,

hari last patut da dapat poems year 6.

tp...

1 haram aku x buat

berkenaan assignment,

mula2 aku nak buat,

ble pk aku x dapat hasilkan esie yg berkualiti,

moral down dan dengan cepat aku tdo di depan laptop,

ZZzzzzZZZZzzz....

berkenaan ngan tugasan yg diberi mdm bb

ape kejadahnye die suruh aku sbb aku ade kete?

die ingat aku punye minyak baya pakai die punye bapak punye duit???

mdm bb:pay hakeem rm1.50 from the class fund

die ingat blh bli ape singgit 5 kupang tu?

rokok 3 btg pun x lepas

lawak2

ble aku x dapat cari

mdm bb:i don't care...i want to see ur presentation on sunday.if u want to blame,blame hakeem

peh...

panas telinga,

berasap kepale,

terbakar hati.

kalau ade yg nak salahkan aku jgk...

aku x kesah...

at least aku ade usaha...

naik moto,

pusing sp,

1 petang,

minyak sendiri...

dari korang...

mintak tolong,

menyepi diri.

huh....

nasib baik ptg td syamel ajak g mkn2

so tepat kul 8.30

aku,syamel,bob,wan,wawan n tajul

bergerak ke dataran ikan bakar

2 siakap...1 sim 1 3 rase,sotong setengah kilo masak cabai

kailan ikan masin ngan sup

nasik 10,air sirap 3 jag

mmg kenyang

thanx to our main sponsor>>>bob

akhirnya aku disini

di depan laptop dan sekarang

post diakhiri...

p/s:kalau ade yg terase sori...aku gle sakit ati...need time out

me,me,me

hmmm...

i wonder...

is it just me???

or...

it really seems like...

i've a lot of backstabbers???

i always do good...

well...

to most of the people i know...

but...

what i get back is totally not what i've expected...

i don't mind bout money...

not because i'm rich or what...

but because my mom said that in each and everything we get...

there is a part for others...

i don't want anybody's money...

all that i wan't is a smile and a simple thank you...

still...

i got more than what i hope for...

u don't have to talk bout bad things behind me...

don't be hypocrites...

i can face the fact even if i'm the only person that's ever belive in me...

god damn it!!!

what the fuck am i babbling about???

n...

Latihan umah sukan??

latihan umah sukan?

apa itu?

ohh,

baru ku ingat...

sekian lama kulupakan

bertahun ku tinggalkan

kini kau kembali jua

bosan?

tentu sekali

ptg td ku hadir

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muahahahaha

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kataku pabila ditanya

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hehehehe

luntar peluru ku lepas

lompat jauh diambil name

sempat main ragbi lagi

org lain memandang serong

namun itu tidak ku pikirkan

semua pandangan ku endahkan

karena...

ajk tertinggi gembira dgn kehadiranku

almaklum la

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muahahaha gelakku lagi

miggu depan kan ku datang lagi

baju adidas sudah pasti

rumah mahsuri tetap di hati

HIDUP MAHSURI!!!

stupid huh???

tonight i went out 4 a dinner
a candle light dinner
on valentines day
everything seems perfect
but not for one thing...
i wasn't with the person i love or like
stupid huh?
yesterday i went to tesco
met with a girl that i once met
on a bus
on the way back to sp
i know i had a chance if i were to talk to her
but i didn't
stupid huh?
i love a girl
who's somebody's girlfriend
who's even a higher standard from me
and would never have the feelings
that i have for her
for me
stupid huh?
sumtime i just don't know why
i hesitate
i gave way
i became weak
huhuhu
any suggestion?
cuz i' kinda "stupid huh?" to think for a solution..

Friends

Friends..

Some ppl use them

Some ppl appreciate them

But 4 me...

I treasure them

Before this I really don't mind bout them

but when i entered IPSAH...

that changed

Bob,Syamel,Ammar,Wan,Wawan,Tajul...

They are the best

Can't find others like them

Bob tought me how to b a friend

Syamel tought me to b a man

Ammar tought me that there's more than just one world

Wan showed me kindness

Wawan...

Ajar bace kreko je kot

Tajul plak

Ajar aku jgn jadi rapat sngt ngan Wan

Sbb nnt pokcik Wan kol nak kejut subuh

huhuhu

Pape pon just wanna say

U guys r the best

p/s:

yg aku x cakap jgn terase

ramai sngt nnt

cuz as long as u r my friend

i love u most

dbv40

20.1.2009
bermulanya satu era baru bagi db
lahirnya dbv40
???
blur
basicly i made this blog cuz i was attracted to the power of writing
to share experience
feelings
and thoughts
i hope that u'll be having fun reading my blog
not this one for sure
even i feels sleepy writing it
hope i can update this blog frequently
daa~~